Why?

Right now at this moment, I'm filled with a sense of emptiness and the attitude of "I fucking hate everything" is one that could best describe me right now.
This is probably due to undecisive hormones prevalent during everyones teenage years but I guess just like everything else I experience, it feels like I've had this feeling for years.
I guess the only way to calm myself down and stop myself from doing something irrational would be to think over why I feel howI do and what I can do to make amends to the situation/s.

So lets think, maybe it could be because:

I feel distant from everybody I talk to and find it impossible to maintain a close relationship with anyone?
My mum recently seperated from her husband and this is bringing back supressed (suppressed?) memories of when my dad left?
After twelve solid years of struggling at school and always being labelled the 'black sheep' someone finally realised that I might have ADD and it turns out that I do? (It is a relief to know why I have found school so hard, but seriously, twelve fucking years?!)
Last week I got bashed for no reason-what the fuck could compel someone to do that?

I still feel angry but I guess I might just go sleep it off seeing as it's late.

"Are you searching for something? Never feeling quite complete?"

Reflections

My old blog won't let me update it so I will continue from here,

Old blog: http://theworldwithinkieran.blogspot.com/ if you're curious.